new diet plan

alan is wholly skeptical, but i'm sticking to my guns with our new diet. it revolves around a very simple principle - exercising every day. so if you worked out today, then you deserve to eat. if you didn't work out today - you don't deserve to eat.

it's self-regulating - getting hungry is your body's way of reminding you that you need to exercise. eating after you work up an appetite is far more satisfying - and i've found that after a good workout, i tend to crave things that are healthier for me than when i sit in front of the computer all day.

i had this epiphany today when i was trying to motivate myself to get to the pool, and internally weighing my self-disgust at the most sedentary fall season i've had since the year i tore my knee. (honestly - even though i was crippled i think i was at the gym more then than i am now, if only to do weightlifting).

so chatting with al on my way out the door, debating whether to swim or not .. he prodded me to go work out. of course. exercising gf = thinner gf. little did he know i would bring down the new plan of working out every day and both of us returning to the dojang. football has been fairly low key, mostly because i just don't care as much as i did in the past, and dodgeball...our team was so bad this time that it wasn't really worth getting hyped up about.

new decade, new goals. perhaps it was fitting that the 10th anniversary of the mit stkd club happened this year, at the close of my twenties, my retirement from sparring, and getting most of the use of my hand back. it was a great weekend full of old and new faces, nostalgia to a magnitude i'll probably never experience again, and celebration of the fact that no matter how life may not be fair and how disappointed or regretful i may be about anything else - there was one thing in my lifetime that i put my whole heart into that became everything i ever dreamed for it to be. and more.

it leaves me with a whole lot of pride, a smile on my face - but also a lingering feeling of ... are the best years of my life behind me? at the cusp of 30, if that's true, then that's pretty depressing. but honestly ... i don't know how anything is ever going to top that era of sheer passionate drive and really feeling like i had it all at my fingertips. in the words my mom always said to me... 한참 좋을때... (loosely translated, the time when everything is good ... nuanced to where the world is before you and you have all the opportunities and good places to go)

but first thing's first. i will not get fat and lazy and old just because i'm turning 30. and since i've been described as a "force of nature" - those around me will not either. (sorry alan).

new diet starts after the fball tournament. we'll see how long this lasts...