me myself and i

RAWR:

1) Leaving for Pan Ams in 2 days. It's really truly amazing how this is supposed to be my first national team and the biggest-deal tournament I'm going to - and that no one cares. Well, maybe not no one, but considering that we have to take care of all our own arrangements for the trip, we're not travelling as a team, possibly not even all staying at the same hotel or eating in the same place...that it's almost certain at this point that we're not getting team warmups or uniforms...that it was "suggested" that we stick around to cheer for each other...it's really quite discouraging. I guess it's just another tournament then.

Even more upsetting is the fact that Sabs aren't coming. Even if our team ends up fragmented, everyone else on the team will have other teammates, parents, coaches coming to watch and cheer and support them. I hate having to ask Sabs repeatedly whether they'll be there for something or not. I hate asking people for things in general. It's like - there's a really big tournament coming up and it's very important - would it kill people to offer or otherwise just DO things to help?

2) Things that hurt - just trying to hang on...goodness gracious please pray for me, my body just has to hang in there for one more week.

Back (strained)
Instep (swollen)
Knee (sore)
Shin(s) (sore)
Toe(s) (sprained)
Thumb (sprained)
Hip Flexor (pulled)
Hamstring (pulled)

3) Richard forgot my birthday. He apologized profusely but that just makes me more sad.

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